idiot.

me. i'm an idiot. an indecisive idiot but an idiot nonetheless.

i met a boy. he called too much, he didn't ask me out correctly...anything and everything was wrong with him.

i did the immature "sort of blow you off" thing...as in waited almost until it was too late to call back or calling on the way to something so that there would be a set ending to point to phone calls. also as in making excuses not to go out with him.

then two weeks ago i called him back (it had been a week and a half since he had left a message..i know i'm mean) and to my surprise i enjoyed our conversation. and to my bigger surprise i found myself asking him out that weekend. and the biggest surprise: i had a great time.

so now...he doesn't call so much. he doesn't answer when i call and waits days to return said calls.

and with his change of behavior i have found myself becoming a spoiled brat. and on friday i embarrassed myself badly...taking exception and accusing of him being a liar by texting he had just gotten home (from out of town) when in fact he had been home for hours drinkign with one of his buddies. of course this "anger" stemmed from the fact I had been waiting for him to call me back for days...

but still...

i left message today on his voice mail apologizing. he has not returned my call.

of course.

i'm an idiot.